Lair of Kaze-sama

dah 26 dah aku ye? nice ahjussi.

Seriously, aku memang takde minat kat budak kecik. Tak kira baby ke sampai la ke umo 4-5 thn, aku tak minat langsung. Ramai sedara aku yang lain yang dah kawin, bila dah ada baby, aku tak pedulik sangat. Pasal aku tak berminat pun. Kalo ada pun aku jenguk tengok je. Takde faedah pun kat aku.

Haha, jahat gile kan aku ni? Time kakak aku pregnant, aku buat biasa je. Malam kakak aku nak bersalin, aku buat bodo je sambil enjoy lepak bersama kawan2.

Tetapi..

Anak sedara/anak buah/nephew aku pertama dilahirkan pada pukul 2:25 pada hari Ahad, 22 November 2009. Bapak aku sms kat aku pagi tu, tapi aku masih tido lagi, tak sedar. Aku bangun tengahari pun masih tak perasan sms tu, tau pun bila bapak aku call and bagitau kakak aku dah selamat melahirkan anak dia.

Anak kakak aku. Cucu mak & bapak aku. My nephew. Somehow bila aku dapat tau berita tu, aku jadi excited gile. Bila bapak aku mms gambar nephew aku buat kali pertama, aku yang tak minat dengan bayi tiba2 aku suka gile tengok gambar dia. Perasaan aku tak payah cerita la, memang happy gila. Aku sendiri pun heran apsal aku boleh excited sangat. Status facebook aku selalu tulis pasal dia, walaupun belum jumpa lagi. Dia belum dibagi nama lagi, tapi lepas 2-3 hari kemudian, lepas macam2 idea nama dibagi (aku siap tekan bagi nama Wan Runi, asal dari nama Wayne Rooney), last2 abang ipar aku bagi nama dia, Syed Haziq Zakhwan.

4 hari kemudian baru aku dapat jumpa Haziq, bila aku balik Kuching untuk sambutan Hari Raya Aidiladha. For the first time bila aku tengok baby kakak aku ni, aku jadi excited gile. Entah la, apsal aku boleh jadi gitu. Pasal Haziq ni real first nephew aku ke? Baru je anak kakak aku, belum lagi kalo anak aku sendiri macam mana?

Sepanjang 4 hari aku balik umah aku tu, aku dapat bawak dia 2 kali je. Maklum la, n00b lagi pasal baby so memang tak berani nak bawak Haziq lagi. Fragile sungguh, cuak bila aku bawak dia. Kalo ikutkan, aku memang nak stay lama lagi nak bersama Haziq, tapi sebab aku ada interview hari selasa tu, terpaksalah aku balik KL.

Syed Haziq Zakhwan, your pakcik/ngah/uncle missed you very much.

태연 – 만약에

만약에 내가 간다면 내가 다가간다면
넌 어떻게 생각할까 용기 낼 수 없�
만약에 니가 간다면 니가 떠나간다면
널 어떻게 보내야할지 자꾸 겁이 나는걸
내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
만남뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
만약에 니가 온다면 니가 다가온다면
난 어떻게 해야만 할지 정말 알수 없는걸
내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도
외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
내가 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

Romanized lyric

Tae Yeon – Manyageh

manyageh naega gandamyeon
naega dagagandamyeon
neon eoddeogeh saenggakhalgga
yonginaelsu eobtgo

manyageh niga gandamyeon
niga ddeonagandamyeon
neol eoddeogeh bonaeyahalji
jaggoo geobi naneun geol

naega babo gataseo
barabolsu bakkeman eobtneungeon amado
wemyeon haljidomoreul ni maeumgwa
ddo keuraeseo deo mareojil saiga dwelggabwa

jeongmal babo gataseo
saranghanda haji mothaneungeon amado
mannam dwiyeh gidarineun apeumeh
seulpeun nanaldeuri dooryeowoseo ingabwa

manyageh niga ondamyeon
niga dagaondamyeon
nan eoddeogeh haeyamanhalji
jeongmal alsu eobtneungeol

naega babo gataseo
barabolsu bakkeman eobtneungeon amado
wemyeon haljidomoreul ni maeumgwa
ddo keuraeseo deo mareojil saiga dwelggabwa

jeongmal babo gataseo
saranghanda haji mothaneungeon amado
mannam dwiyeh gidarineun apeumeh
seulpeun nanaldeuri dooryeowoseo ingabwa

naega babo gataseo
saranghanda haji mothaneungeon amado
mannam dwiyeh gidarineun apeumeh
seulpeun nanaldeuri dooryeowoseo ingabwa

English Translation :

Tae Yeon – If

If I should go, should I go close to you?
How would you think about it? so I am fallen-heartened.
If you should leave, should you leave me?
How could I let you leave? continuously I am scared.

the reason that I ,Being fool, am only but watching you from a distance
is because maybe I am worried about your heart
probably to turn my feeling away
and so becoming more alienated between us

the reason that I ,Being really fool, cannot say ‘I love you’
is because maybe I am afraid of the pain
and the saddening days expected after falling in with….

If you should come, should you come to me?
How I should do? really I have no idea.

the reason that I ,Being fool, am only but watching you from a distance
is because maybe I am worried about your heart
probably to turn my feeling away and so becoming more alienated between us

the reason that I,
Being really fool, cannot say I LOVE YOU
is because maybe I am afraid of the pain
and the saddening days expected after falling in with….

the reason that I,
Being fool, cannot say I LOVE YOU
is because maybe I am afraid of the pain
and the saddening days expected after falling in with….

Hi. Lama dah aku tak update blog aku ni. Just nak bagitau aku yg baru grad ni, lom ada kerja lg. Skang ni aku walaupun aku takde kerja, tapi aku bukan NEET lg, aku tgh attend SAP training under INSEP yg ditaja oleh Kementerian Kewangan Malaysia.

Free training siap dapat elaun lagi. Dah la course SAP TERP10, antara course yg termahal kat dunia ni. Kitorg calculate, semua benda training utk group kami dlm 25 org trainee je dibayar berjuta RM gak tau. Huhu.

Skang ni baru aku tau apsal gaji2 SAP admin/consultant & yg guna SAP ni gaji diorg tinggi2 belaka. Rupa2nya system SAP ni sendiri yg susah gile. Dah 8 hari aku belajar SAP ni, masih tak paham gak mcm mana nak guna SAP ni dlm bisnes.

SAP ni lg senang kalau budak business admin yg belajar guna, sbb dia banyak guna term2 business & business process. Aku plak mana paham benda2 business process ni, kalo term IT boleh la. Tapi boleh la belajar sikit2 pasal business management ni.

10 November nnt aku akan attend exam cert SAP. Exam ni la yg akan menentukan masa depan aku nnt, so aku mintak tlg dari korang, doakan aku lulus cert exam ni please~

ASFIA

it’s the plural form of the arabic root word ’safi’, which means something along the lines of “one who purifies” or “saintly”…so then the plural, asfiya, becomes “those who are saintly” or “those who purify”…

am I?

just a small update from the owner of the name.